well just finished some maths revision, and damn it realli does wonders just to sit down and get to understand your work instead of just relying of pure memorisation. but still the application is more important, and tmr we shall see how much i learnt hahahaha.
today was pretty much same old same old, school, after school, home, but my mondays are never productive anyways so screw it, must make the rest of the days count. CANT BELIEVE A'S ARE COMING SOON!!!! freak if cambridge decide to screw me one more time!!! i shall give them 1 more chance, although they've already had 3 hmph.
To DO: -SEA history gone mad mugging, everything from U Ba Pe to U thant to Phan boi chau to Sukarno to Ho Chi Minh to Chularlongkorn.
-IH history, cold war details, dates and arguments!
-Econs: get familiar with the concepts and start appreciating the finer details!! also do more essays and case studies:P
-Maths: practice, practice, practice, no choice
-Physics: Get Anything Ready, Yo (in other words, G.A.R.Y)
Amidst all this fear of not doing well or not performing up to standard, somehow the worries clear up and things dont seem that bad anymore, just knowing that if the going gets tough, you are tough enough to plow through it.
sorry baby for today, i hope it doesnt happen again, i love you(:
10:49 PM endurance, risk and love
Omg havent posted in the blog for ages!! im giving blogging another go, hopefully with more success hahaha :P
Well im sure by now anyone and everyone will be familiar with the new way of life: Eat, MUG, Sleep. Definitely i've been doing alot of the ole' mugging myself, sometimes its fun, sometimes its shit, but no matter what still gotta do it so thats all you can do. Cos everybody knows if u get even 1 B, your just shit out of luck and ur life is over. From that day on you are condemned to a life of misery and mediocrity and frankly you will never amount to much and no one will ever give a shit about you. Your parents will hate you, peers will jeer at you and most importantly employers will scoff at you, kick you out of the interview room and send an email entitled "Call this guy for interviews for fun, lets just mess with him for fun-sies". Basically, the B stands for Boo-ya! As in the system just owned you and you cant do shit, Boo-ya!
If you think the scenario i just painted is batshit crazy, you are right, it is. But sadly it is the mind frame that most of us work in nowadays, the one-wrong-move-and-thats-it-ism school of thought, and frankly its mind boggling. when will singaporeans learn that life is open-ended, that life isnt meant to be spent within a best-laid framework.
Lately i made it a point to myself to never to stress myself out by comparing myself to others, cos that is just counter productive and just basically pointless. Im stressing myself out for no good reason, whilst doing nothing about it since im worrying. I'd much rather know what i have to do, accomplish that and maybe do abit more. The fact is if u rely on the "my friends are working hard and therefore i should too" mentality, i think at the end of the day you just dont really know what you want and what you are working for. That way, you know what you want, you know where you are going, and ultimately, you are just plain happier (:
Also, been getting alot of direction from the late-great comedian, George Carlin. He is such an enlightened man, i feel, and he has thought me to never shy away from disagreeing with the widely held views that the masses have, and that to never compromise ur own beliefs for the sake of others. There is always an objective way at looking at things, even when emotions seem to drive decisions. Such as now i can say that i truly believe that animals do not have rights and should not have rights, and the killing of animals is justified to the extent that it is necessary for human survival. Another interesting thought from him, is the disdain he has for movements trying to protect endangered species. His case: the fact is 25 species go extinct every day, it is the natural order of things, and it will carry on with or without the presence of humans. We humans can sometimes think the world of ourselves, and even in a way revert back to the old times when people thought the sun revolved around the earth, that we could ever do anything to affect the earth. In the big scheme of things, we are but specks in the universe, and eventually when even we humans go extinct (and i feel no sadness when i think about the possibility of mankind being wiped out), the earth will "shake us off like a bad case of fleas" (George Carlin).
yawn....alright gonna sleep
12:23 AM endurance, risk and love
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Yo! realised i forgot to blog yesterday, thats cos i was playing Sims 2 on my com hee hee. quite fun although some would beg to differ, okay fine most would beg to differ. Created a character called Kenneth Tan! hee thenplayed the university part, graduated Summa Cum Laude, which means head of the class! hahaha then later when i turned into adult, i made my dream hse complete with swimming pool, pool table, full band intruments, bars and etc, as well as a special someone inside hee. but yea that basically summarised my day:P
today, met jun chang at yck gym for a gd work out lol, did squats and damn did 90kg squat! but that was only cos i forgot to take off the extra 10 kg, and thus i did the squats thinking it was 80 kg:P after that went for lunch, we met yikai and yea, we ate. then after doing some stuff, and hanging arnd, went home! where i had dinner, and then went to my room to get busy. now here i am lol, leonards party tmr is gonna rock!!
OMG 1 MORE DAY ONLY!! <3
12:03 AM endurance, risk and love
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Hey! just came back from kendricks party and damn i am tired hahaha. didnt realli do much actly. reached at about 5 with brandon yan jie and bert, then we played a little table tennis haha, then after that every1 else reached and we ate and while the guys played poker i just watched watever was being screened on the projector. just wasnt feeling lucky today ahahah. yupp then after we vacated the function room, went poolside near kendricks hse and drank a few black labels, leonard and chris were freaking wasted! and i mean "hey kendrick take off my pants i gotta go swim" wasted, as said by leonard at the height of his euphoria hahaha. lucky i managed to stay sober, and hence was able to fully fitness the hilarious things that those wasted people did, i managed to slap chris like 20 times straight and he just lay there laughing :P after that, cabbed home with shaun and keith and yeap here i am, freaking sleepy:P
omg i dreamt that you came back today :P and i was so sian when i woke up and realised it was all a dream haiz, miss you so much dear, come back soon! *MUACKS*
2:10 AM endurance, risk and love
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Heyzz, woke up pretty late today, and by late i mean by my standards, so that means i woke up at 10 am :D i can imagine some of my friends going "thats quite early". seriously i hate waking up late, just pisses me off, its like i totally wasted time slacking in bed when i could be awake and doing other stuff, like living life HAHAHAHA. and by living life, i meant i woke up at 10 to play sims 2 -.- oh wells. but after that went to meet leonard cherrie chris kim and bert for a game of bowling, which although i took some time to get in stride, i won the second round with a paltry score of 121 points, next closest was i think bert with 80+ so yea, i OWNED!!! then later i owned them again in the arcade with a win in Bishi Bashi (thanks dear for the training :D) and two wins in daytona MUHAHAHA. seriously, it was a day of ownage for me but yea this kind of satisfaction so stupid. then after that went for dinner at seoul garden, which cost me 30 bucks!!! wat the hell man seriously, that place is as such a rip off, but ah well it was gd fun catching up and talking about the old times. told cherrie she had to eat her weight in meat to make it worth it, she couldnt do it. yupp then that was about the end of the day, went home after that and here i am. tmr is the real party at kendricks hse hahaha, hope i dont have to send any1 home cos they are too drunk to walk, reminds me of chew HAHAHAHA.
ONLY 5 MORE DAYS!! :D MISSING YOU SO SO MUCH BABY, CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN (: *MUACKS*
Warmness on the Soul by Avenged Sevenfold
Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make. And that feeling of doubt, it's erased. I'll never feel alone again with you by my side. You're the one, and in you I confide.
And we have gone through good and bad times. But your unconditional love was always on my mind. You've been there from the start for me. And your loves always been true as can be. I give my heart to you. I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
And we have gone through good and bad times. But your unconditional love was always on my mind. You've been there from the start for me. And your loves always been true as can be. I give my heart to you. I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
I give my heart to you. I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
12:08 AM endurance, risk and love
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Another day, another boring day HAHA. dragged myself up at i think 9 this morning to try and beat the morning crowd at the gym, and i guess i succeeded:P did squats today! the jelly-like feeling u get in ur legs afterwards is just so funny hahaha. yupp so after gym, went home to slack, and to watch my newly acquired movie, fahrenheit 911 by micheal moore. its basically a 2 hour long documentary on the Bush administration, from the dubious way in which he was elected, to his inaction when the first 2 planes had hit the world trade center, to the final invasion of Iraq in search of WMD's. i've always enjoyed his documentaries solely because he presents the side that most people in power would love to ignore and to keep secret, although i do acknowledge that his documentaries are severly one-sided and thus most people nvr take his work seriously. but i guess it can still be important as a single piece of evidence for one argument, although one should always consider the whole spectrum of arguments and not base opinions solely on his documentaries. If u ever have the time and means, you might want to check out his other documentaries such as Bowling for Columbine and Sicko, i garuantee u, u'll be shaken to the core. Some of my favourite documentaries also include Jesus Camp, a documentary on the lives of young christians in the conservative south of the U,S and A. It is almost shocking how these young children are almost indoctrinated with extremely radical mindsets on religion and christianity, so much so that their whole view of the world is warped and skewed realli badly. So yea if u ever find time, check these out, if u want i have Jesus Camp, can ask from me hahaha. After that took a nice nap where i had one of my odd odd dreams again, must be from watching The Hills Have Eyes 2 and other shows with monsters. I like dreamt i was such agent or something and like have monsters on the loose, i had a gun and yea it was pretty fun:D surprisingly i wasnt scared at all!:P the cool thing was whenever i shot a bullet i'd see the bullet travel in slow motion towards the target from first person view, then into the skull or watever it is :P yupp head shots everytime cos i remember i was "conserving" bullets, just to realise my gun had some magic in it and nvr needed to be reloaded and nvr ran out of bullets *yay! :D* yupp so that was fun:P Now here i am typing this post.
Thanks so so much for the surprises babe, great to hear from you so i wont be so worried about u being safe and eating well and being bullied. I LOVE YOU LOADS, see you realli soon and i cant wait, take care and HAPPY 6th MONTH! <3>
Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love Purpose hard to find While I recall all the words you spoke to me Can't help but wish that I was there Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you Is to hold her when I'm not around When I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you But I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed 'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again, oh no Once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road There's no one here while the city sleeps And all the shops are closed Can't help but think of the times I've had with you Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is To hold her when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed 'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again
Some search, never finding a way Before long, they waste away I found you, something told me to stay I gave in, to selfish ways And how I miss someone to hold When hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love Hope is hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is To hold her when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away We all need the person who can be true to you I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed 'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again
10:33 PM endurance, risk and love
Heyz, just got back from da esplanade, quite a tiring but fun outing nonetheless haha. met senghenk at 3 in the afternoon to accompany him on some shopping trip lol, bought some expensive stuff and spent extensive time at like decorative stores. He looked around whereas i mostly just browsed random stuff hahahah. after that sat down at starbucks and chatted about stuff, he gossiped abit also lar but just abit hee. after that, wierdly, senghenk left then met yikai( 0.0 yea wierd i know hahah) we had dinner at marina square then walked around looking for desert and finally settled on going to kilineys for like a waffle with ice cream. after that went to esplanade to watch louisa's performance. it was realli good and i've always been impressed when i watch them perform, they are realli quite gd, and they should be considering the amt of time they put in hahahaha. also met sihui and matthew shortly after the performance, turns out they were just walking around haha. then after that, followed louisa and yikai for supper at makansutra, this was where it started to get crazy. i used like my older appearance to order some cans of *ahem*, 3 to be exact, then i tot since yikai was the one who wanted to drink, she would be fine. i was wrong. after 1 can, she started getting all crazy and shit! realli like giggling to herself and like not walking in a straight line! thank god louisa was there or else i wouldnt have known what to do. she also like kept demanding we that picture lar, and omg the pictures she took she looked realli crazy and shit. quite funny lar but at the same time i was like "omg what have i done!" so me and louisa coaxed her all the way to the mrt, and finally when we were on the mrt, she finally got back to normal, or rather her normal level of wierdness :D all in all, i guess today was great fun :)
HEY DEAR,HAPPY 18TH ANNIVERSARY!! MISS YOU SO SO MUCH, COME BACK TO ME SOON! :*
12:00 AM endurance, risk and love
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Hey ya'll, another pretty uneventful day i would say hahaha. dragged my ass out of bed at like 9.15 this morning just to rush to the gym. good day at the gym i would say, lucky not many people or else would have been kinda slow and sian and unproductive :P hmmmm thinking i should go again tmr, but my boobs hurttt hee. damn funny today, while i was doing bench, this guy came up to me and ask me with his serious face and all, "can share?", then i say yea sure, then he loaded twenty on the bars and proceeded with his workout. i tot, "this guy looks like he can handled it", guess wat, i was wrong. did 4 reps, then 5th rep cannot make it, then bailed out by placing bar on the lower rung. quite surprised hee hee, then later same thing happened again, had to bail out, scary sial give ppl heart attack hee. then quickly finished my routine, then went to meet bertrand and isaac in botanical gardens. after dropping at toa payoh and realising that its much easier to drop at orchard, i reached only at 11.45, where they told me they were going for lunch at 12.15, awesome:D so, to lunch we went, where we ate korean, which is something that i've come to know very well hahahaha, but it was gd lar nonetheless. after that went home, which began the spiral into nothingness, watched a god awful film call "the day the earth stood still", boring as hell, keanu reeves was paid wayy too much to say nothing in particular. in fact the whole cast was paid too much to say nothing, just to show apprehensive facial expressions coupled with the occasional "i-dont-know-whats-happening-and-im-realli-scared-but-i-still-gonna-check-it-out" facial expression. all in all, dont watch it, its a waste of time. but thats exactly wat i was trying to do, so i guess i did get something out of it hahaha.
TOday,i asked gan for advice on how to blog well, and she told me "make stuff up lar!" and im like "lol, realli?". but i say NO! i will be truthful and ethical to wat i post of my blog, so rest assured that all the boring stuff that u read about me and my life, they are all true:D probably should post the korea trip pics soon hee. anyways thats all from me, see ya tmr yo.
Dreaming Of You Lyrics
It's up with my heart when it skips a beat (skips a beat) Can't feel no pavement right under my feet (under my feet)
Up in my lonely room When I'm dreaming of you Oh what can I do (wah oooo) I still need you, but I don't want you now
When I'm down and my hands are tied (hands are tied) I cannot reach a pen for me to draw the line (draw the line) From this pain I just can't disguise (can't disguise) Its gonna hurt but I'll have to say goodbye (say goodbye)
Up in my lonely room When I'm dreaming of you Oh what can I do (wah oooo) I still need you, but I dont want you now
Oh yeah
Ohhh Ohhhhh
Up in my lonely room When I'm dreaming of you Oh what can I do (wah oooo) I still need you, but I dont want you now
miss you so so much baby <3
11:11 PM endurance, risk and love
gone mad, woke up at 11 am today, which is like my equivalent to waking up at 2pm, since i usually wake up at 9 :P what can i say, totally slacked the whole day hee, woke up, ate breakfast then played fm09. watched 2 movies though! never back down and transporter 3:D tmr gonna get up early, hit the gym then go recce for oteam! all in all, a realli realli realli boring day HAHAHA
its not even 1 day yet and it already feels so long! come back quickly and safe dear! miss you alot alot :*
12:02 AM endurance, risk and love
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Wow its been a damn long time since i last posted, i stopped at 350 posts and i cant remember whether i did it on purpose or not seeing as its a nice round number :D
freak im seriously addicted to Football Manager Handheld on my PSP. If u are not familiar with the series, its like a simulation game that puts u in the shoes of being a manager in todays highly competitive soccer world. seriously, i've have heart attacks while playing this game, and almost broke my keyboard in 2 while i was playing the com version like last year. right now i just won Derby 1-0 away using Reading!! YAY!!!!! For those who are familiar with the soccer scene, i just freaking got john obi mikel form chelsea on a free transfer, bearing in mind im Reading playing in the Championship, OWNAGE RIGHT!!!
okay nvm enough of that hahaha, right now down with a throat infection that has led me to give myself a break from training today and probably tmr :P i hate to say it but i think i've burned out, i think i realli need a break from it all, its just starting to become a drag.
freak the holidays are almost half gone, and like i haven even started to study, or maybe i have since this morning did some econs at sch with beihan, but still i dont think these study sessions will come anytime soon :P haiz all i wanna do right now is to relax, is that so wrong?! :P and when this holiday finally ends, i would say i dont see myself having much freedom anymore. after this is jc2, which means A levels will become my life, and after A levels the defence of the country will be my life, then after that uni a.k.a studying will become my life then finally work and family and finally death HAHAHA, that is the life in front of the average male Singaporean teen.
freak lar just drew at home to freaking leeds united, im gonna get sacked seriously
9:47 PM endurance, risk and love
la femme ;
Ken Tan. RJC. RUGBY PwNZeer
im like 17 so i can STILL watch nc-16 movies
spread the love ;
Kevin Smith Movies:Clerks,Clerks 2, Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
My Nintendo Ds.Sleeping with no air-con.sleeping in general.My Nintendo DS
did i repeat that?
PaNic! At the Disco.FOB.Linkin Park.Rihanna.MCR.Sugarcult.Breaking Benjamin.Neyo.Avenged Sevenfold
Yo! realised i forgot to blog yesterday, thats cos i was playing Sims 2 on my com hee hee. quite fun although some would beg to differ, okay fine most would beg to differ. Created a character called Kenneth Tan! hee thenplayed the university part, graduated Summa Cum Laude, which means head of the class! hahaha then later when i turned into adult, i made my dream hse complete with swimming pool, pool table, full band intruments, bars and etc, as well as a special someone inside hee. but yea that basically summarised my day:P
Hey! just came back from kendricks party and damn i am tired hahaha. didnt realli do much actly. reached at about 5 with brandon yan jie and bert, then we played a little table tennis haha, then after that every1 else reached and we ate and while the guys played poker i just watched watever was being screened on the projector. just wasnt feeling lucky today ahahah. yupp then after we vacated the function room, went poolside near kendricks hse and drank a few black labels, leonard and chris were freaking wasted! and i mean "hey kendrick take off my pants i gotta go swim" wasted, as said by leonard at the height of his euphoria hahaha. lucky i managed to stay sober, and hence was able to fully fitness the hilarious things that those wasted people did, i managed to slap chris like 20 times straight and he just lay there laughing :P after that, cabbed home with shaun and keith and yeap here i am, freaking sleepy:P
Heyzz, woke up pretty late today, and by late i mean by my standards, so that means i woke up at 10 am :D i can imagine some of my friends going "thats quite early". seriously i hate waking up late, just pisses me off, its like i totally wasted time slacking in bed when i could be awake and doing other stuff, like living life HAHAHAHA. and by living life, i meant i woke up at 10 to play sims 2 -.- oh wells. but after that went to meet leonard cherrie chris kim and bert for a game of bowling, which although i took some time to get in stride, i won the second round with a paltry score of 121 points, next closest was i think bert with 80+ so yea, i OWNED!!! then later i owned them again in the arcade with a win in Bishi Bashi (thanks dear for the training :D) and two wins in daytona MUHAHAHA. seriously, it was a day of ownage for me but yea this kind of satisfaction so stupid. then after that went for dinner at seoul garden, which cost me 30 bucks!!! wat the hell man seriously, that place is as such a rip off, but ah well it was gd fun catching up and talking about the old times. told cherrie she had to eat her weight in meat to make it worth it, she couldnt do it. yupp then that was about the end of the day, went home after that and here i am. tmr is the real party at kendricks hse hahaha, hope i dont have to send any1 home cos they are too drunk to walk, reminds me of chew HAHAHAHA.
Another day, another boring day HAHA. dragged myself up at i think 9 this morning to try and beat the morning crowd at the gym, and i guess i succeeded:P did squats today! the jelly-like feeling u get in ur legs afterwards is just so funny hahaha. yupp so after gym, went home to slack, and to watch my newly acquired movie, fahrenheit 911 by micheal moore. its basically a 2 hour long documentary on the Bush administration, from the dubious way in which he was elected, to his inaction when the first 2 planes had hit the world trade center, to the final invasion of Iraq in search of WMD's. i've always enjoyed his documentaries solely because he presents the side that most people in power would love to ignore and to keep secret, although i do acknowledge that his documentaries are severly one-sided and thus most people nvr take his work seriously. but i guess it can still be important as a single piece of evidence for one argument, although one should always consider the whole spectrum of arguments and not base opinions solely on his documentaries. If u ever have the time and means, you might want to check out his other documentaries such as Bowling for Columbine and Sicko, i garuantee u, u'll be shaken to the core. Some of my favourite documentaries also include Jesus Camp, a documentary on the lives of young christians in the conservative south of the U,S and A. It is almost shocking how these young children are almost indoctrinated with extremely radical mindsets on religion and christianity, so much so that their whole view of the world is warped and skewed realli badly. So yea if u ever find time, check these out, if u want i have Jesus Camp, can ask from me hahaha. After that took a nice nap where i had one of my odd odd dreams again, must be from watching The Hills Have Eyes 2 and other shows with monsters. I like dreamt i was such agent or something and like have monsters on the loose, i had a gun and yea it was pretty fun:D surprisingly i wasnt scared at all!:P the cool thing was whenever i shot a bullet i'd see the bullet travel in slow motion towards the target from first person view, then into the skull or watever it is :P yupp head shots everytime cos i remember i was "conserving" bullets, just to realise my gun had some magic in it and nvr needed to be reloaded and nvr ran out of bullets *yay! :D* yupp so that was fun:P Now here i am typing this post.
Heyz, just got back from da esplanade, quite a tiring but fun outing nonetheless haha. met senghenk at 3 in the afternoon to accompany him on some shopping trip lol, bought some expensive stuff and spent extensive time at like decorative stores. He looked around whereas i mostly just browsed random stuff hahahah. after that sat down at starbucks and chatted about stuff, he gossiped abit also lar but just abit hee. after that, wierdly, senghenk left then met yikai( 0.0 yea wierd i know hahah) we had dinner at marina square then walked around looking for desert and finally settled on going to kilineys for like a waffle with ice cream. after that went to esplanade to watch louisa's performance. it was realli good and i've always been impressed when i watch them perform, they are realli quite gd, and they should be considering the amt of time they put in hahahaha. also met sihui and matthew shortly after the performance, turns out they were just walking around haha. then after that, followed louisa and yikai for supper at makansutra, this was where it started to get crazy. i used like my older appearance to order some cans of *ahem*, 3 to be exact, then i tot since yikai was the one who wanted to drink, she would be fine. i was wrong. after 1 can, she started getting all crazy and shit! realli like giggling to herself and like not walking in a straight line! thank god louisa was there or else i wouldnt have known what to do. she also like kept demanding we that picture lar, and omg the pictures she took she looked realli crazy and shit. quite funny lar but at the same time i was like "omg what have i done!" so me and louisa coaxed her all the way to the mrt, and finally when we were on the mrt, she finally got back to normal, or rather her normal level of wierdness :D all in all, i guess today was great fun :)
